...Hell As We Want It...

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2011-05-16T14:25:00.004+08:00

...The Not So Ugly Truth...

2010-11-17T00:39:00.003+08:00

truth is this blog is no longer exciting.

maybe it has never been exciting.

too much to handle too little time.

I blame twitter for taking my time.

I blame tumblr for making blogspot looks like a gspot.

I blame myself for being inferior, towards the tumblrsphere.

I blame myself, for realizing that when you take out one vocal from a word it makes it cool.

like : tumblr, blogspt, whatevr

so follow me on twitter.com/TheAshraffA

oh yea bitch I started this blog so I can curse anyway.

but as I grow old I realized some more healthy ways of dealing with anger.

like bitching about it in front of your friends. fuck yea it feels great.

or buy expensive things to make you feel better. the feeling of awesomeness.

oh well, you got old and start to be immune about almost everything and I'm guessing that should mark the end of my profanity on blogspot because I don't have that much to bitch about. anymore.

maybe.

maybe I'll write again tomorrow, or 30 years from now.

who the fuck cares maybe thirty years from now someone would have invented a hot tub time machine or something and I can come back to tomorrow and write.

makes no difference.

depending on your understanding of the space-time continuum

why must you complicate everything dear albert einstein.

why must you relate the e the m and the c together ?

why can't life be just about eating fried chicken and music.

why can't it be just about roasted duck and pepper. or cheese oyster and tempuras.

why must you go and think about time, and light, and space, and extraterrestial, and forces, and motions.

why 50 years ago no one came up and say, shut the fuck up and eat your fuckin chicken with your own fuckin hands and start being fuckin grateful without thinkin what the fuck kind of thing is raising your hand.

whatever. too late to complain about that now.

altho it would have been nice if right now I can just eat chicken and listen to music without thinking about energetic photons and bullshits.

so goodnight earthlings.

NO TITLE NEEDED

2010-04-14T15:48:00.001+08:00

I've been told how profound I've been lately.

haha.

aku tahu.

lama dah.

because unlike you, I'm COOL.

and I'm a MOTHERFUCKING GENIUS.

After A Long Delusion

2010-02-17T18:09:00.004+08:00

kawan aku cakap.

"at times in life you got so sick of love all you need, all you want is sex"

just a plain one night stand.

ahah bila ada orang cakap ayat-ayat prodigious ni obviously aku akan scrutinize.

at a point in life.

life aku life kawan aku.

you got so sick of love.

sick of love not because kau ada 9 ex yang bila kau terserempak dengan diorang masing-masing dah ada balak baru and buat muka kat kau sebab kau jalan dengan kawan lelaki kau macam gay.

bukan.

sick because of this senescence-in-retrograde mode.

is to skim through everything in retrospect.

and then contemplate, regret, curse upon and puke.

sometimes people wish they can choose what to remember and what not to.

the same way some people wish they can change the ribonucleic acid.

the hard cold truth is that we can't.

it's despicable to not be able to erase what we want when we want it and recall it when we are ready.

life isn't that easy.

so bila kau bitter about past love experiences,

you try not to think on how you met, how you talked, how your partner used to smell, how they used to laugh and whine about simple things like the stove is on fire.

so you choose the good part. the simple sex.

I have never think of sex as a part of love.

people can survive together without sex if they love each other.

and yet they can have sex when they don't love each other.

and sometimes sex, just don't make love.

my uberfriend reached this nirvana first before the rest of us.

of which up until now some yet still haven't.

it's never to easy to just let go and move on.

so he got the full of it and went up and down the country trying to find a place he can settle down.

so he got sick.

so sick of love.

and just need sex.

he's a model now. not a gigolo.

he modeled sex, lust and affection without love.

he's happy and as should we all.

dulu dia fikir cinta je boleh buat dia happy.

so selalunya bila nak lupakan ex kita cari orang baru.

thats what he tried.

it didn't work tho.

but that brought him to where he is now.

a very happy bastard.

of course it involves lots and lots of one night stands.

and condoms.

and contraceptives.

but at a point you just need sex. not love.

with lots of different people.

*random rant*

-aku benci kakak bodyshop yang fugly macam fag tapi pakai push up bra and cakap bahasa melayu macam baru datang malaysia.

-and yes A minor sama dengan C major.

Utter Satisfaction

2010-02-14T21:53:00.001+08:00

finally aku beli hoodie Armani and I'm eff eff effin satisfied not to waste money on something else.

RSVP

2010-02-02T00:57:00.001+08:00

please stop following other people's arse around.
sebab muka kau macam bullshit.
and even your mother says so.
bukan aku je.
try tanya mak kau. kot2 dia tahu?

For The Meantime

2009-12-27T00:58:00.002+08:00

aku belum ada rasa mahu tulis apa-apa.

sudah hilang semangat.

unknown reason.

yeah it's despicable. not just you.

Of SS9, Brickfields, Bukit Bintang Dan Volodrom

2009-09-04T20:19:00.004+08:00

kadang-kadang ada benda dalam hidup yang kau kena inhale, exhale dan inhale kembali.
seperti pep talk dari perempuan beberapa jam sebelum dia datang bulan.

kau pernah tak jalan-jalan masa kau puasa lepas tu kau sesat?
kalau tak maksudnya kau tak pernah berada at the rockbottom of your life.
semalam aku rasa banyak sangat aku kutuk orang ke tahap dosa yang aku buat cukup untuk buat tiket masuk neraka.
first class private.
how is it my fault perangai dia macam babi, antisocial and dicky?
aku share dengan kawan-kawan masa dalam perjalanan pukul 11 malam dekat bukit bintang tentang persepsi macam-macam orang tentang pukimak yang kami sependapat.
dan rasanya memang tak salah kalau the whole batch nak benci kau sebab kalau kau mandi pagi dan tengok cermin, mesti kau akan sedar yang muka kau macam cibai.
dan kalau kau guna cermin yang besar sikit mungkin kau nampak perangai kau lagi cibai.

masa escalate naik bridge to pavilion Aza cakap pasal deja vu.
then dia share pasal waktu dia kecik-kecik dia nangis bila dapat deja vu mak dia masuk pintu bawak payung.
masa aku kecik pon aku seram dengan deja vu.
rasa macam nampak hantu ju-on yang merangkak-rangkak.
thereon kepada teori-teori deja vu yang mungkin betul atau fiksyen.
cerita sambil jalan ke arah Zara walaupun macam tahu dah tutup tapi tetap pergi sebab parking RM6.
kemudian melekapkan muka ke cermin Armani sebab nak tengok hoodie yang macam sial lawa.
bila balik obviously tak boleh masuk apartment sebab guard cibai jadi tidur dalam kereta.
kelas fizik esoknya macam separuh mati sebab belakang sakit dan rasa kepala dah putus.

jadi hari ni balik mintak duit.

P/S: I LOVE YOU.

...Surat untuk Julie...

2009-07-25T20:56:00.004+08:00

berikutan weekend lepas yang sangat pack,

my ankle hurts my thigh hurts my ass hurts.

aku kat rumah sebab tu aku escape Malaysian Studies.

...Season In Sunway...

2009-07-07T20:16:00.003+08:00

so aku seperti terperangkap macam zaman kecik-kecik dulu bila kau bangun awal-awal untuk pergi sekolah.

obviously Advanced Level jauh lagi pack dari sekolah atau dari yang sepatutnya.

jadi bullshit kepada siapa yang kata aku sangat free untuk pergi euphoria setiap malam atau pergi tengok freedom beach.

Last week ada sale-besar-gila-babi-tapi-takdela-besar-sangat kat klcc.

tapi bila ada sale memang la masalah bila kau nak cari size.

apparently calvin dekat pavillion tu ada dua dan jarak antara dua sangat lah jauh.

jadi bila aku jumpa seluar yang under 50% discount bila harga asalnya RM 1199 sudah tentu lah aku terkinja-kinja excited.

bila kau dah terkinja-kinja promoter pandang kau semacam dan tanya kau saiz apa dengan nada yang annoying gila.

lepas itu takde size so kau kena pergi calvin dekat hujung dunia lagi satu untuk cari seluar yang sama kalau ada.

tapi selalunya memang tak ada sebab buat apa dia bodoh nak jual benda yang sama.

jadi bila kau dah pergi sana pun kau jumpa benda lain yang agak cantik dan akhirnya kau beli lepas kau try dekat fitting room.

pathetic gila bila kau pakai dalam fitting room lepas tu kau balik dan cuba dan tiba-tiba kau rasa macam tak sama.

nak tukar tak boleh refund walaupun lepas kau tuduh promoter tak berdosa tu tukar seluar kau dengan yang lagi murah.

jadi kalau nak pergi sale dan beli benda mahal kau cuba lah sepuluh jenis pun tak apa lepas tu kau campak aja kalau kau tak nak.

in the end kau terpaksa balik rumah dan mintak duit dekat mak sebab dah teroverspent duit minggu ni.

jadi esok aku balik.

...Celaka...

2009-06-18T21:05:00.007+08:00

I can't help but to actually contemplate this on going shit day by day.

6 maid aku,

namely,

Lin, Mar, xxx, Erna, Kusnia dan xxx.

yang 'xxx' tu tak ingat nama dia.

THE CURIOUS CASE

Lin.

awal 30-an.

perempuan ini sangat celaka.

selalu buat barang-barang aku rosak.

satu hari my mother bagi dia pergi rumah abang dia dekat Muar kalau tak silap.

she never came back.

the biggest mistake was probably untuk bagi gaji dia ikut bulan.

Mar.

awal 30-an,

sangat pandai berkebun,

baik,

sopan.

tapi terpaksa dihantar pulang after medical check-up yang inform dia ada hepatitis B.

xxx,

yang ini kelakar cerita dia.

perempuan ini agak slut.

kerja sebulan sahaja.

habis semua sudu-sudu mak aku dia angkat.

Erna.

awal 50-an.

muka macam Oma Bertha.

accent dia aku tak pernah faham.

aku tak pernah cakap dengan dia ni.

probably sebab aku duduk asrama.

emo juga perempuan ni.

Kusnia,

awal 30-an,

kurang ajar,

suka melawan,

previous2 entri aku semua pasal dia.

diberambuskan sebab mak aku rimas dengan dia.

xxx,

awal 50-an

baik sangat2.

my favourite ever,

sebelum ni dia kerja dekat Singapore,

jadi dia pandai masak Italian sebab tu la aku suka.

dia kata nanti dia nak buatkan aku macaroni cheese.

tapi semalam,

ya, semalam.

around 12 tengah hari,

aku cari dia nak suruh masak,

dia x ada.

aku cari keliling rumah.

x ada.

aku cari kat rumah jiran,

x ada.

sampai petang,

dia x balik-balik.

dia dah lari.

kami semua memang tak sangka.

dia baik sangat untuk kami syak apa-apa.

memang la don't judge a book by it's cover.

dia baru lagi kerja.

so nama pon tak tahu.

CASE CLOSED

so for the meantime kena basuh pinggan sendiri, dan kemas rumah.

off topic;

-aku tak boleh bla the way ninja mp3 tu nyanyi lagu perempuan.

-entri ini supposedly di post semalam tapi aku terlalu marah pada ketika itu.

...Saga Kegersangan...

2009-06-10T18:52:00.007+08:00

kau tahu,

recently aku dengar Decode-Paramore.

dan aku terfikir pasal kipas-kipas susah mampus Twilight ni.

masa Robert Pattinson berlakon Harry Potter dulu takde siapa pun nak bising pasal dia,

suddenly bila dia jadi vampire semua perempuan menjerit macam perineum kena sapu dengan KY.

kalau nak kira dalam YM aku tu berapa ramai yang guna ID yang ada kaitan dengan Twilight memang dah tak terkira dah.

*mscullen* la

*me_love_bella* la

*I-love-edward-wana-fuck-him* la

please.

"acap, acap!! kau tahu New Moon punya official trailer dah keluar. OMG I'm so delighted..emmemmemm..hensemmnyeee die..."

"acap, I've seen the trailer and was like trippin horny when I saw sharkboy!!! OMG"

"acap, acap. Doesn't New Moon totally makes Robert utterly kissable and Taylor Lautner so fucking sweating hawt!!!"

aku rimas.

utterly.

kalau ya pon dia hensem just keep it to yourself bitch!!

I can accept a plain statement.

even betapa x-rated

tapi kalau kau state dengan gersang aku rimas lah.

kalau sekali dua takpe.

Aku admit la.

memang it wasn't a bad film, Twilight.

not bad.

tapi please,

kalau gersang bukak redtube.

terima kaseh.

...Nueva Entrada...

2009-05-25T20:26:00.006+08:00

dah 5 hari aku makan fastfood untuk lunch dan dinner.

I felt so goddamn bloated.

Driving up and down Melaka recently dengan cousin.

banyak sungguh hal dia nak settle.

lately was income tax.

her father got audited.

so to people, contemplate your tax agent.

don't regret this later.

So hari sabtu aku balik rumah dari MP.

about pukul 4 aku sampai rumah.

you should know aku sangat penat.

about 10 minutes later my house phone rang.

it's Safuwan.

"Acap, datang sekolah skarang, kitorang blablabla..Abg Adib pon ada"

dammit I say.

like if the call was 40 minutes earlier I wouldn't have to drive back home la!!

I can go straight to school without wasting any energy or my 40 bucks on gas.

So at 6 p.m aku sampai sekolah, headed straight to bilik HEM.

then to my another surprise,

mana nya si Diva Gebuss tu.?

later then was I informed dia naik bas 9.30 esok from Shah Alam.

aku kena kencing sial.

kencing manis.

so that day we were like a total goon tak mandi until 12 a.m.

later we driven through mcD for a supper+breakfast.

slept at 4 after watching XMen kat rumah Cikgu Husaini.

and then came the pet peeve.

note that aku tidur tepi sekali atas katil.

and then for somewhat seemed like 5 o'clock ada lagu jepun memekak-mekak.

betul-betul sebelah telinga aku.

celaka jam loceng tu.

obviously bukan jam aku.

aku putar-putar dia tak nak diam.

dammit.

sebelah aku chareeyan dan dia surprisingly not interrupted dengan bunyi celaka tu.

aku geram.

pissed off.

aku letak jam tu kat telinga Chareeyan hoping he would wake up and help me shut the fuck up.

aku tak tahu dia tidur lagi mati daripada Queen Victora.

nasib baik la Cikgu Husaini terbangun dan mendiamkan jam tu.

aduyai.

Abg Adib ada call pagi tu,

at 9.41 a.m sharp.

"abg baru naik bas kat Shah Alam..10.30 sampai la"

dia fikir dia naik Shinkansen.?

note that the truth is dia sampai pukul 11.30.

then pagi tu Casa Impian.

god.

rumah cikgu lagi teruk dari tapak pelupusan.

okay maybe not that bad.

2% better.

semua benda yang aku rasa tak patut ada dalam rumah ada kat rumah dia.

yang kurang cuma binatang2 buas je.

so mengemas rumah tu adalah nightmare I had to live with.

kau imagine macam mana dia boleh hidup dalam bilik 20 by 20 tu yang sarat dengan barang2,

minyak masak yang dah setahun tak buang,

lantai yang dah 4 tahun tak mop, means since 2005 (tahun kedatangan dia).

toilet yang ada tumbuh-tumbuhan yang tak dikenal pasti.

dan 5 orang lagi manusia tambahan.

god..beyond imagination.

then afterwards pergi lunch dekat Pizza Hut at 5 p.m.

fine make it lunch+tea+dinner.

Abg Adib+Cikgu treated.

Ada mental telepathy yang managed to dazzle everybody.

menarik.

then end of day.

...Road Not Taken...

2009-05-18T18:53:00.005+08:00

apasal la Robert Frost menghantui hidup aku sangat sekarang ni.

god.

hari ni aku habiskan dengan menonton parody yang merepek.

so dammit.

I am still fuckingly here in Malaysia.

rejected Telekom's offer.

accepted Petronas's offer.

seriously la,

aku tak contemplate.

aku tak nak rushing pergi France.

and aku tak nak buat Electrical tu.

drag.

shmuck.

so A Level dulu dekat Sunway College.

sedang berusaha memujuk parents supaya aku dapat bawak kereta.

walaupun duit biasiswa tak cukup pon nak isi minyak.

siapa dekat Sunway College sila beritahu.

...When Diverged Roads, Diverge...

2009-05-14T18:50:00.002+08:00

pening.

before aku shmug sana sini,

thank you petronas,

thank you telekom.

Aku kene serious.

aku tak pernah serious.

langsung.

tapi kali ni kena serious.

Petronas offer Petroleum Engine dekat Australia dengan 1 1/2 year of fondation in Sunway College.

Telekom offer Electrical and Electronic Engine dekat France, no foundation, fly this June.

seriously,

hidup aku memang susah.

aku takde passion.

langsung.

bila takde passion,

kau memang susah buat pilihan.

yang ni ok...

yang tu pon ok...

macam mana ni.

aku rasa putting a knife across my heart would be damn a lot easier.

aku tak pernah imagine aku sebagai E.E engineer.

aku tak tahu apa kerja diorang.

dan aku tak kisah.

jadi doctor pernah la aku imagine.

shmug.

that day cg rita tanya.

acap what u wana be.

seriously la teacher, i duno.

tapi time tu aku jawab, doctor.

"doctor ah.? u dont look like one la."

in retrospect.

correct la what she said.

like seriously la I'm not a book freak.

I don't like to hafal hafal and stuff.

so those are the only two options I have.

two options the ending I can never be sure of.

regret.

or rejoice.

Robert Frost, again you are right.

...Angsty...

2009-05-07T15:30:00.004+08:00

oh.

aku bengang gila hari ni.

bad mood.

offer letter UIA baru sampai.

I went through it.

to my fear,

aku sudah patut agak dresscode dia akan jadi sangat sial.

sangat.

sangat sial.

even high school pun tak macam tu.

aku benci high school pasal uniform.

sekarang memang tak payah uniform.

tapi still kena pakai kemeja.

kemeja PLAIN bullshit.

bodoh.

option: kemeja or baju melayu "RAIHAN"

seriously,

dalam buku is--> RAIHAN.

memang aku hope dia tulis RIHANNA.

shmug.

aku excited sebab UIA kat PJ.

tapi kau akan turn off bila nak keluar pon kena mintak izin dari fellow.

what the fuck gila.

damn.

...Beloved...

2009-05-04T15:21:00.015+08:00

oh.

ok.

took me sometimes to recall,

remember,

riminisce,

relive,

rejuvenate,

and share that YTM camp.

A LOT better than petronas educamp.

seriously.

aku ingat aku akan regret kalau pergi.

ye lah.

dengar nama pon dah seram.

kem broga.

haha.

camp ini fun gila.

even if I used to hate long lectures.

cuba bagi tahu aku camp mana yang suruh kau buat puzzle.

aku tak pernah jumpa lagi.

aku malas nak rant everything down,

so I'll skip to the best part.

-meeting group A people<--damn I miss yall.

-witnessing Soh crying when the SpiralGreen got destroyed<--should I enjoy this.?

-completing the puzzle<--walaupun gambar shmug gila.

-meeting roomies like Penghulu, Shawn, Jon, Hazim, Chok n Britney.

-info: aku tak pergi pon riadah pagi2 tuh. too lazy lo!!

-well, I must say, was fun to differentiate types of accountant..gratsi to billy.

-I never givadamn about fish, cows, ducks and swans. tapi camp ini back to nature loh!!

-hehe. best ke dengar cerita psych by mr khamis about that third party.?oh.aku seram bhai.

-instead of touring kindergartener like petronas did, telekom tahu macam mana nak buat camp lah.!!

-what's best, aku tak pernah hirau sape2 aku jumpa kat camp.but this time I hell miss them all!!

pet peeves.

-I hate the act.

kurang asam gila kata SpiralGreen budak gila buat.

kalau dia buat I wonder if it floats.

I'm certain HE will float.

tipulah nak test anger management.

sebenarnya dia orang nak lepas geram.lol

nak tangkap gambar pon tak sempat!!

-tempat dia suburb gila.

nak masuk situ kena lalu hutan,

kubur,

lembu,

beberapa anjing,

dan sebagainya.

first impression aku,

campfire ke.?

ada tent ke.?

ada harimau.?

beruang.?

siot.

Excel Training

1.15 AM, still standing! renu onli still smiling.haih

ini tie penghulu.! aku minat gila tie dia.HAHA

off topic;

-swimming pool dia colour dasyat gila.coklat kot.haha

...Money to Hell...

2009-05-03T11:34:00.002+08:00

minta maaf pada bank negara.

aku akan absent pada hari temuduga.

...When Something Was Poured Right From The Heart...

2009-04-30T19:48:00.005+08:00

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I’ve tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

aku broke down bila baca ni.

Thanks Robert Frost.

If Im a girl I would have married you.

thou art dead or thou art alive.

for my heart hath adored thine majesty.

as thee lived the street of glory.

next on my shopping list is literature.

Robert Frost stole my soul.

...1 Atau 2...

2009-04-23T19:43:00.014+08:00

sometimes,

bila kau get really used to how you behave towards your special someone,

kau lupa..

that not everyone can be treated the same..

intonation dan enunciation..

kau buat orang meluat..

rasa kau seperti supermofo atau kawan-kawan di brickfield..

kekasih kau suka lah.

bila kau konon manja,

kau bajet rebellious..

aku kata A, kau kata Z

aku kata Armani, kau kata Zara

aku kata slowmo, kau buat hardcore

aku kata spandex, kau kata speedo

semua opposite..

opposite gila..

rebel.

people say opposite attracts..

like magnet of different pole..

like people of different role..

betul kah?

harap lah..

is this flavor.?

or ecstacy to relation.?

kau akan tahu.

::entri 2 dalam 1

...Means Of Empathy...

2009-04-23T15:11:00.013+08:00

this is about a goony bag,

feel sorry for my school blog,

hacked like hundred times.

it's messing my sidebar..

so to celaka yang gila shmuck..

tak perlu macam sial nak hack blog orang lain..

get a life mofo..

n get a ball as well..

...Survey...

2009-04-22T16:08:00.008+08:00

apa pendapat kau orang kat lelaki yang tulis macam ni:

-jgN naK combonK ngaN aKU!

-x cuker dpaksE!

-thnXsz k!

hak dia lah nak tulis macam mana kan..tapi aku nak tahu apa orang fikir..

...When Road Diverges...

2009-04-22T15:08:00.022+08:00

so, aku tak pergi interview Sime Darby..
aku penat dan aku nak pergi Wind Orchestra (WO)..
okeh, aku tipu..

aku kat Sunway after interview Telekom<--rabu..

membeli benda yang aku nak sebab ada sale dan aku sangat tense..

aku excited..

kau pun akan..

balik melaka, chareeyan call..

oh..

pelik..

pelik gila..

dia ajak pergi WO..

haha..

aku tak tahu patut gelak atau marah..

marah lah..

gelak lah..

esok supposedly interview Sime Darby kat Tractor<--khamis..

nak pergi ke tak..

krisis dalaman beberapa minit..

so, aku pergi WO<--khamis..

insane lah kan..

gila ramai yang maki aku..

lantak lah..

dia orang kata, 90 orang je yang Sime panggil..

aku boleh pulak tak pergi..

haha..

aku dikelilingi manusia-manusia judgemental..

aku puas dapat pergi WO..

cikgu rita, i bet you'll never forget me after this..

tiada gossip hangat..

safuwan slowmo..

gah!!

aku tak menyesal pon..

dan aku takkan post apa-apa pasal interview..

malas..

sampah..

dan panas..

balik melaka<--ahad..

balik rumah<--isnin..

lepak dengan eugene..

while waiting for mcD, to starfuck..

gila kat starbucks..

kat WO asik lepak maple..

aku dah boleh muntah..

muntah darah.

dan muncul lah pet peeve seperti biasa..

starbucks mp memang bodoh<--pet peeve..

lebih bodoh dari paris hilton yang IQ 16 cuma..

lembab dan bangang..

aku tercurah sebotol cinnamon dalam latte..

sebab pepper hole dia besar cam bodoh..

bau macam sial..

aku pasti bukan aku yang bodoh..

sebab sebelum tu dan tiada apa2 berlaku kat flavor lain..

then tengok upcoming hatten square..

cantik..

cantik sangat..

aku nak beli suite tu..

mintak2 la sempat..

eugene, salah kau lah..

ayah cakap, good investment..

so,

definitely maybe..

::make sense kan tajuk tu

eugene, next time, don't do that face again..ever

after accident cinnamon..damn

off topic;

-Giordano sedang sale gila..mari serang promoter..

-aku rasa beli Calvin kat ebay lagi untung..tapi kurang kepuasan..

-Dataran Sale 80%..jarang.?..Joseph Abboud

-Hatten Square siap 2011..

-kenapa kau perasan kau hot sangat?

...Interview!! gah!!...

2009-04-13T22:52:00.003+08:00

ouh..

aku tak tahu macam mana aku nak hidup nih..

pening gila kepala..

aku baru balik from perak untuk interview utp yang bosan..

besok nak drive pergi Jalan Raja Laut untuk interview Mara..

lusa plak pergi HQ Telekom untuk interview...

aku nak tido tadi..

then check email kejap..

aku nampak nama Nur Husna Nemat..

HR Sime Darby..

kepala hotak dia notify aku interview Sime hari Khamis..

maknenye, after Telekom..

aku sampah betol bende last2 minute nih..

bagi le tahu awal2!!!

...Lagu Ini Mengimbau Memoir Geisha Ouh...

2009-04-01T12:36:00.008+08:00

wakaka..

tajuk cam bodo..

Demi Lavato..gagaga..

lagu ini aku suka..

waktu tuh..

kau kata yang kau suka lagu nih..

ah..

kau jangan nak buat lupa plak..

time kau jalan balik dari 5 Alpha lah..

nak balik hostel..

tapi lepas tu..

huh..

...Baca Saja, Tak Perlu Emosional...

2009-03-31T22:26:00.014+08:00

Entri akhir march..

pendapat orang tentang Melayu..

Baca..tak perlu emosional..

Fikir..betul atau tak

kalau tak kutuk dorang mana nak perasan..sebab sebok tunggu kene suap ngan kerajaan. Anak emas la katakan..

Melayu malas sebab kita boleh lihat bertapa KEBANYAKAN bangsa ini tidak mampu bersaing ke tahap yang boleh dibanggakan. Itu poin saya! Kalau di Malaysia, bangsa Melayu dapat kemudahan lebih dari bangsa lain, nak bersaing apa lagi yek? Tak payah bersaing, Melayu dapat apa yang dorang nak, kerajaan sure bagi..

Awak nampak tak?

Saya kutuk bukan sebarang kutuk. Saya kutuk dengan sebab. Telinga orang Melayu tipikal macam awak, macam saya juga, memang mudah mendidih, sakit hati. Bukan main lagi saya kutuk habisan bangsa saya sendiri..tapi ini sekadar nak menyedari kesalahan and kelemahan kita. Kita kena sedar, kita kene terima, kita kene ubah, kita kene baiki!

Myojo, awak bicara bodoh sombong dan berfikiran tertutup..kritikan tak semestinya menghina! Mungkin awak tak pernah terlintas bahawa ada kritikan juga yang membina. pokoknya, bagaimana kita terima and buat sesuatu mengenainya!

bodoh sombong and berfikiran tertutup..
So.. Itu lah dia MELAYU!

Pendapat orang tentang Malaysia..

no comment..

this place is a hopless racist democracy, run by malays.. No questions asked.. or ISA(internal security act) ppl will lock you up. Malays hav special rights, and do they need it.

The constitution was messed up from the beggining.

Go thailand, its way more fun.
Go Singapore, just don't drink their water
Go Malaysia?... just to eat... only the food is good

Kau fikirlah..

...Tag From Sheikh...

2009-03-31T18:35:00.026+08:00

maleh tol nak tag2 nih..orang dah tag buat je lah..huh

5 brands you like the most

Banana Republic
Ben Sherman
Ted Baker
Paco Rabanne
A/X
Topman
Abercrombie and Fitch

5 brands you dislike

BUM
Cheetah
Body Glove
...
...

5 countries that you want to go the most

Malaysia
Bahamas
Wales
England
US

5 countries that you want to go the most

Prejudice2..tak baik lo..

5 item that you like the most

VAIO Laptop
Cell Phone
Perfume
Hoodies
Jeans

5 item that you dislike the most

5 people that you love the most

5 people that you hate the most

Fake
People with nosejob
Yang asyik tanye "eh!! wat are u wearing?where?how much?can I get it?"
Copy-dog-pig-cat
Asik mahu condemn

5 color that you like the most?

Black
White
Red
Beige
Mauve

5 color that you dislike the most?

5 things that you dream the most

5 things that you not dream at all

My cat
Other people sex life <--seriously, kau mimpikah?

5 of your positive character

Waa..very caring lo..
Very loving
Ah..bodohlah benda nih..angkat2 bakul jek..

5 of your negative character

Love obsesively
Spend excessively
Aku terlalu lembab untuk fikir sampai lima kah?

5 moments that you miss the most

Lunch with..
Singing with..
Shopping with..
Straying with..
What the hell

5 moments that you do not want to remember at all?

The Big Fight

5 positive characters of your best buddy

oh..very patient lo..
Very understanding
Very sexy..hahaha
oh charming dammit..
...

5 negative characters of your best buddy

Suka tanya soalan bodo <---kau tahu kan siapa
Suka merampas <---hehe..
Not a good kisser kot <---kau lah..haha

5 things that you happy to do the most (Of your entire life)

Accompany dia anywhere <--toilet tidak okeh
Singing with..
MOZAC lifey
Shopping <---seriously, siapa tak?
Swimming

5 things that you regret the most

Shopping tanpa dia...
Tak jumpa dia everytime ada chance <---ah2..ridicule
Tak cakap ngan dia eventhough an inch close..shit

SINGLE QUESTION

Favorite animal?

Sunbear

Favorite quote?

Mazel Tov <---onli when Fran Fine say it

Favorite actor?

Ntah

Favorite actress?

Meryl Streep, Fran Drescher <---aku envy gila babi

Favorite things that you do when you are alone?

Think <---waa..bosan gila..

Favorite website?

www.myspace.com/************ <---dah, tak perlu teka okeh..

Favorite moment?

That Night..

Favorite sport?

Swimming

Favorite vegetable?

Nothing

Favorite movie?

Devil Wears Prada

Tag this to 10 person

Izzah Nasir

Kak Yuyu

Kak Sopen

Alia

Amir

Akmal

...A Kind Of Debate...

2009-03-27T20:01:00.005+08:00

aku mahu kau orang bace ini..

sambung la pergaduhan mereka..

hahaha..

"PERGADUHAN TERBESAR ABAD INI"

bergaduh secara sihat ye..

...Piperine, Atropine dan Quinine...

2009-03-21T21:03:00.012+08:00

Baru baca tentang alkaloid...

pening macam haram...

Jumaat,

ke Port Dickson,

killing time sahaja..ahaha..

malam ke Alamanda..

fuck..

aku takkan pernah ikut jalan lama lagi..

one second kat Sepang, another second kat Bangi Lama..

shmug..sesat..

terima kasih abang gemuk Bangi Lama,

yang menunjuk kan aku jalan ke highway..

sory lah aku kacau kau makan...I lab u lah!!!..

sampai Alamanda pada masa penutup..

shmug lagi..

pukul 9 keluar rumah, makan di Alamanda sepatutnya..

sampai-sampai, even McD dah tutup..

shmug ketiga..

mahu makan di Soho, salah jalan terus ke Dengkil..

tak pernah dalam hidup aku sesat sebodoh itu..

lepas satu2..

try and error, sampai Nilai..

masuk highway..

terima kasih menteri kerja raya tercenta..

alas, makan RnR sahaja..

lahanat betol..

KFC Express..

sekadar nama..

lembab tahap siput babi..

sengal betul malam itu..

rasa macam orang tak sekolah..

bila berhenti 10 petronas bertanya arah..

sial sial sial..

...what happened, happened...

...petang di PD...

...ah, apekah itu??hahaa..kau nampak ke??...

off topic;

-tahu apa itu annoying?

annoying itu when someone TyPs LyK OmFgGGG ThiSS BeCaUsE ThEy TiNK It LyK OmgGGzzZZz LooKs LyK ToTallY LyK AwsoMe

aku benci kau..

...Audacity of Hope...

2009-03-19T20:25:00.007+08:00

Aku sudah gentar...

bagaimana hendak aku hadapi interview..

bangsat..

penting benda ini..

aku tahu..

aku tiada impertinent quality, effrontery segala..

apa yang aku nak jawab bila dia tanya kenapa music aku tak A1..

mana aku nak cari segala nerve, spunk, temerity dan foolhardiness..

mana aku nak cari enough plaster nak cover muka..

fuck..

audacity of hope aku pudar..

aku gentar..

Soalan killer untuk aku;

-Why the hell did you took this paper and wound up not getting an A1?

Perlukah aku jawab;

- Looking back in the damn retrospect, I was pretty certain A1 is in my hand. The only reason of me taking the paper. The only reason to be audacious enough to build the damn bridge across the damn divide. The hydrogen to the oxygen. The only electron to fill the hole. The air and blood to the body. I would not regret it but shall I cherish that fuck for making me realize the accent of my damn blood. It isn't the grade that matters, but it's the fucking effort I put on.

Atau aku patut jawab;

-Definitely the question I ask when I heard my principal said there's only one student with 11A1. I have been contemplating and scrutinizing myself and end up confining that it's up to me to work as hard as hell to get good grades but it's really up to god to circumscribe what shall I get.

Now what I got is what god curbed for me and indeed there's nothing better to do than being indebted for it.

contemplation itu fuck!!!

Rasenye tak patut aku jawab;

-I don't know!!

innocence juga fuck!!!

Lagi x patut rasenye;

-Arse you..

bangsat..

aku memang tak tau ape nak buat..

...Pari-Pari di Bawah Angin...

2009-03-19T11:47:00.021+08:00

okeh..okeh..

abaikan tajuk..

aku inactive lately..

bz dengan shopping..

duit da habis, baru bleh blog..

gagaga..

malas mau citer pasal result SPM..

x mahu dikenang kembali..

hidup mesti diteruskan..

walaupun betapa sial dan bangsat permulaan..

semalam keluar..

melengkapkan wishlist..

Paco Rabanne saja belum dijumpai..

board bus KL at 8.30..

sampai 9.30..

raup pick up kat Kota Raya..

insiden Petaling Street malas mau citer..

lepak maple..

mamak lembab cam sial..

telinga pekak..

pekak badak..

mintak tisu, kasi roti tisu..

kene maki ngan raup..

kehkehkeh..

...raup...

then ke topman, beli seluar slack..

okeh, aku tipu..

ke topman klcc dulu,

takde slack..cikai..

so ke gap usha cardigan..x lawa..cashmere sekalipon..

malas ke zara,

ramai poser..ouh..seluar kau murah, underwear kau zara..

takpe..

hak kau lah..mementingkan keselesaan dalaman kau mungkin..

ke Donna Karan then..tak nampak pon slack..

A/X, takde jugak..

fc..takde gak..

fc skarang sale..70 percent ouh..baik kau pergi..Donna juga sale..

aku suka sale..

74AMankind masih belum bukak..huh

...diana suda penat...

then ke topman pavi, ada apa yang dicari..

ahaha..

baru beli slack..

then ada pulak hoodie smart oyhoyhoyh..

terbeli..

pastu carik something yang aku pick up kat topman klcc..

tapi takde..

jadi, ke klcc balik..

beli benda tu..

sequence, pegi pavi balik..

ps-klcc-pavi-klcc-pavi..

ouh penatnye..

pelacur di brickfield pun tak sepenat tu..

aku da tak larat nak

jalan lah!!..

dah petang saat itu..

tak sangka bila tanpa dia lagi banyak aku spend..

banyak....

banyak sangat....

membeli untuk melupakan kah??

ye..kau lah!!

campur yang kat jusco seremban 2..

aku skarang dah miskin..

miskin....

miskin sangat..

kemudian ke lv..

sebelum balik..

...abaikan...

bilakah ben sherman akan tiba..puaskah membeli online?

ouhhhh..

pet peeves:

-wahai mat bangla..mungkin kau tak sedar,

aku annoyed sebenarnya,

bile kau tanye aku 10 kali soalan yang sama..

soalan yang sama struktur berbeza..

masuk kali ke-11 aku mahu tapak je muka kau..

nasib aku masih berbudi bahasa..

-wahai mamak,

kau tak perasan..

yang aku perasan kau itu hayal..

aku cakap berulang kali..tapi kau tetap salah bagi..

-woi mat Indon,

kau aku benci..

jangan buat jalanan ini macam bapak kau punya..

meludah sana sini macam dekat jogjakarta..

bodoh kau..

arsehole..

-oi polis2 bergerak,

aku annoyed tapi aku masih tersenyum..

tak payah la 2,3 kali jumpa,

masih nak minta IC,

masih nak ransack bag aku segala..

hanya for hanging depan kota raya..

celaka..

...Happy Feet...

2009-03-08T08:19:00.002+08:00

hahahaha
bibik baru best gile ah
baik
name blom tau
malas nak tanye
yang penting die boleh buat BLT untuk sarapan aku
aku sungguh happy

...Huu...

2009-03-07T23:21:00.002+08:00

meneruskan usaha esok..
mencari pasal..
masih di seremban..
ouh..
aku xcited gila babi..

...Kepada Encik Anonymous...

2009-03-06T15:33:00.003+08:00

baik, jadi kau tahu ape maksud blog ini..
habis apa kau nak buat dengan aku..
kau mau saman aku ke..
hahaha..
kenapa guna anonymous..
dasar bacul!!
blog ini bukan untuk kau mencapub..
sila pegi mampus..

...Shopping Frenzy...

2009-03-06T10:01:00.004+08:00

..pergi menghanjeng kejap ke JJ Seremban smalam..
..cari kasut..
..tak jumpe..
..20 minit je masuk JJ tuh pastu dah bla..
..nasib baik kazen yang drive ouh..
..tak r penat..
..usaha akan diteruskan pada hari Ahad..
..oyh oyh oyh..

...Perang...

2009-03-04T10:00:00.010+08:00

Hari ni,
my mother blows her top...
pergaduhan mulut telah berlaku di rumah pagi tadi..
antara dua kuasa..
pukul 6.50 pagi,
my mummy, and her servant..
ape kes??
aku masey tido..
aku blom sempat investigate..

pukul 8.41 pagi,
mother called from work,
suruh book flight pergi Jakarta..
dalam hati aku, "hantar die balik naik sampan je"

pukul 9.25 pagi,
bibik tanye aku nak sarapan ape..
aku kate the usual tapi kurangkan value,
die cam baru lepas melalak je..
padan muke kau..
selame ni memang orang kat dalam umah ni sabar je dengan kau..

6.45 petang,
mesyuarat..
agenda: bile nak campak die balik Indon..
hehe..
rasanya, lusa..
oyh oyh oyh..
aku gembira..
usul bertukar bibik dengan kazen suda ditolak..
kerana kazen pon tak menghinginkan die..

8.05 malam,
konfem dah kau akan dicampak ke Jakarta..
hihihi..
aku seperti bermimpi..
mimpi yang amat sangat terbest giler ah..

off topic;
-aku mahu pg somewhere 13 Mac,

-tapi..
urusan U aku blom setel lo..
cemane ney..

...Aku Mau Shopping...

2009-03-02T16:32:00.008+08:00

Aku nak pegi Wal-Mart...bile la agaknye nak bukak btol2 ye...

dan kepada kau orang yang nak tunjuk smart-ass sangat kat aku,
kau at least harus tau yang Carrefour itu base die kat France jadi jangan nak betulkan aku dengan sebutan "care-four" kau tu bile kau dengar aku nak pegi "kar-uh-foo r"...

dan mungkin jugak kau tak tahu yang Isetan KLCC tu company Japan, Tesco tu company Britain dan IKEA tuh company Sweden jadi shut up your arse...

last word, blah r smart-ass!!!

:::ignore me, ini ranterism semata2:::

...Kepalatan Hari Ahad...

2009-03-01T23:12:00.007+08:00

Penyebab Hypertension aku:

Pertamanye, kerana aku tidak tertahan dengan kepanasan MITC hari ini <---siot, agak2 pegi JomHeboh tu boleh la aku menghilangkan kepalatan terduduk kat umah ni mengadap laptop..hampeh, pegi nak tengok marching band..sampai2, dah abes dah <---(sungguh palat)
Keduenye, kerana aku bengang kene duduk kat Mlake nih <---setelah patah kaki aku berjalan dari JomHeboh, ke Dataran Pahlawan, ke Mahkota Parade, ke Melaka Raya, ke sane, ke sini dan kemane2 lagi ntah...sebijik kasut canvas, plimsoll pon aku tak minat<---(terpaksa mengembara ke negeri lain minggu depan)
Ketigenye, kerana aku dengan selambenye ditipu oleh amoi kedai kasut <---Die kate kasut Paul Smith yang dia jual tu ori...harga, RM90 <---(sungguh pandai kau tipu aku ye amoi)
Keempatnye, kerana Burger King MP cam hampeh <---straw pon takde
Kelimanye, krisis ekonomi menyababkan kedai favourite aku kat MP bungkos <---tak dapat aku kacau akak cashier tuh...<---(pliz notice house of wax juge suda tidak dijumpai di MP)(atau haritu je)
Keenamnye, aku merasakan Quiksilver kat DP cam cibai <---semacam pavillion punye lagi murah, selambenye die mark up price <---(itu sungguh shmuck)
Last, mak cik cashier Petronas Peringgit tu meragui kredit kad aku takkan decline <---ini menyusahkan aku mengisik minyak dengan cepat <---(implikasi: komputer die hang lepas tuh...padan muke kau mak cik)

...Entri Penuh Spekulasi...

2009-02-28T20:32:00.004+08:00

Entri terakhir untuk Februari...

Miss Ija panggil tolong budak debate,
aku ngan Sheikh je pegi Jumaat tu,
malam, buat audition,
permulaan semua retorik, spekulasi dan tanda tanya...

Aku ni memang problem sikit nak ingat nama orang yang baru kenal,
kalau da lame kenal, sampai nenek moyang die aku tau,
contoh:-Sheikh Faisal b. Sheikh Nasir b. Sheikh Salim b. Sheikh Ubit b. Sheikh Yuda,
5 hierarki aku diberitahu, sebab 5 tahun aku kenal dia,
jadi, sebab aku tak ingat nama budak,
debater2, sheikh yang conclude...

pastu aku tengok budak2 debate ni semacam je...
aku tanye kat sheikh...
"ni ke??"
sheikh kate,
"ye le"

dan aku mula membuat spekulasi,
aku cuba scrutinize every damn potential budak2 ni,
potential yang sheikh nampak...

aku tanye sheikh,
"kau pilih sebab kau suke or dia orang creme a la creme?"
dia kata,
"sebab diorang je yang paling baik" <---(menambahkan tanda tanya) aku kata, "O.K, but Im not seeing you eye to eye" sheikh proceed dengan menghantar nama budak2 tu kat miss ija..
pertanyaan aku takkan dijawab...
sheikh pilih atas dasar apa yang sebetulnya...aha

off topic:
-aku suda berjaya link kan home dan about untuk kau orang

...Old Shit...

2009-02-28T11:05:00.004+08:00

Kepada semua skank, tramp yang x puas hati dengan ape yang aku tulis dalam blog ni,
kau orang akan diignorekan oleh aku ye..
blog aku, suke hati aku..
kau orang nak sopan2, buat blog sendiri, x pon pegi tengok blog JAIM..
chowz chiavika~

side topic:
-btol tak kak sopen..uhu

...Aku Katakan Tidak...

2009-02-27T22:39:00.004+08:00

Walaupun atas banyak permintaan dan cadangan dari mereka yang sibuk, bisi bodi dan yenta...
tidak, aku tidak akan meletak chatbox disini ye...
nak chat pegi tempat lain, blog sheikh ade...
kerana online fraud itu amat menyiksakan...

...Suatu Kejayaan...

2009-02-27T12:40:00.007+08:00

Setelah sepagian aku menggodak kod2 HTML ni,
berjaya gak aku wat layout ni,
aku ciplak org len nye pastu ubah pxpx die, haha
mintak maap la aku tak dapat nak hyperlink kan HOME tu ke tempat yang betol..
dan utk pengetahuan,ahaha..
search engine tu utk blog ni je owkay...
ouh, tu je aku nak cakap

...Dia, Awak, Sayang?...

2009-02-27T07:35:00.007+08:00

Vous m'avez dit que vous m'aimez,
mais je puisse ne jamais être sûr si c'était un amour qui vous moyen,
et si j'étais qui vous avez voulu dire.
nous étions si étroit, comme rien peut nous détacher...

Look at us now...
nous sont comme la corde, accrochant...
papier, déchirée…
la lune et les étoiles,séparé..
glass, brisé...
Je vous aime toujours, je toujours.
Mais qui suis moi à demander un peu de l'amour de votre coeur..

Don't like me for who I am now?
to me, you're just a sow..
kau, dengan mulut celaka kau,
go to hell, away from me now..

...Paisey...

2009-02-26T21:24:00.009+08:00

Mulot kau memang s*al!!!
Kenapa kalau baju aku Ben Sherman,
Kenapa kalau watch aku Titus,
Kenapa kalau eyewear aku fcuk??
n so what I'm wearing shell toes??

Kau nak kate aku narcissist??
self-centered??
material??
hippies poser??
aku tak percaya hidup aku dikelilingi nuchslep macam kau..
blah la wey!!!
tindakan kau sungguh cliche,
macam la aku mintak duit bapak kau nak beli bende tuh
kau agak kau tu Fresh to Def sangat ke?!
lantak la aku nak gune ape,
ey bodo,
lantak la kalau aku tak nak ikut kau dengan banana republic kau tu,
dengan kau punya gaya yang konon macam London bloke..

kau boleh pegi MATI...

...Gedik?...

2009-02-26T17:55:00.008+08:00

erm, aku banyak tol dengar masalah orang ngan pompuan2 gedik nih...
ada org layan je beb2 gedik ni, tp bile diorang dah gedik sangat tuh, 'kakak2' haji taib pon kalah an...

huu~
persoalannye, kenape dorang ni jadi gedik?
beberapa feedback yang aku K.I.V..

gedik kerana...
-desperate nak carik jantan nak pegang2, nak pelok2
-terpengaruh ngan si Hannah Montana ngan London Tipton ngan Sharpay HSM tuh
-dia agak muke dia cantik ala2 Rhona Mitra or Bips..
-dia ingat manolos heels die yang paling mahal, paling tinggi, paling branded
-dia agak orang lain tak tau yang beg Prada, LV, DNG, MNG yang die bawak sana sini tu ciplak..
-dia ingat jam COACH boley dapat ngan 10 hinggit
-dia rase dia la pompuan paling leggy ala2 Tyra Banks atau Giselle
-jantan pandang kat dia bile dia melakukan aksi gediknya itu..walaupun jantan pandang sbb seksa, menengokkan push-up bra dia yang outdated
-dia rase perfume yang dia pakai tu tak diketahui ketidak asliannya..konon je Bvlgari
-dia pakai compact powder murah yang dirasakan mahal utk nampakkan hidungnya semacam mancung
-dia teringin nak jadi hipster dan jugak 'uptown' padahal nampak macam cunt from slutdom dan hakikatnya hipster tak gedik ye

jadi aku rasa sebenarnya mereka yang gedik cuma mahukan perhatian ataupun jantan..
tak pun diorang ni tak perasaan yang diorang gedik tahap cipan..
tapi kengkadang yang jantan ni pon satu hal..
bile yang cantik cam Juliana Evans gedik, die layan..
yang burok cam J Hudson, die makikan..
hakikat, aku tahu itu...
aku takde masalah pon ngan mereka yang gedik nih...
sbab dorang nak carik identiti..
kesimpulan, guna brg yg ori...

off topic:
-kak sopen, m still admiring tulisan2 mu..aha

...Wishlist...

2009-02-25T22:38:00.010+08:00

Plimsoll or Canvas any brand can do..aku desperate
Paco Rabanne...which definitely has to wait
Retro bag...Louis V., kureng pon WC la...
White pumps or canvas...imprinted or non..rerasenye nak cvrse
White laptop...hell new...
Plain, black zip-ups...shoot! I really need this..Topman kot
Plain, light grey sweatshirt
A jumper, just in case...
Easy cut jeans, straight cut can also do..

Aku akan usha sampai dapat...at least as bday present...
nail them one by one

ni plak,

7 for All Mankind...nak jeans die, short sleeve crew, v neck
Armani and Armani Exchange...nak shirt
Ben Sherman...mod fit shirt, fazer cardigan, bramerton hoodie..lawa ouh
Dockers
Diesel..nak jeans and jacket
Ralph Lauren..bile da keje nanti
Ted Baker...tees,tees n tees
Tommy Hilfiger..blazer...x perlu lg pon
Versace
Valentino
Prada
Oscar De La Renta
Michael Kors
Miu Miu...utk kak sopen
Louis Vuitton..case, retro bag
Jack Spade
GAP...hoodie, crew neck
Fendi
Ferragamo
Applemints
French Connection
Calvin Klein
Banana Republic...t's...cam bese
Brioni
Adidas
Converse...plimsoll and canvas!!!
Nike
Levi's
Stussy..waaa.important nih!...streetwear!
Padini...shirt!!

all wanted items...ushhh

...Skolah Terchenta...

2009-02-25T19:03:00.011+08:00

Arini ari rabu...
ari Sabtu ritu aku g r skolah...
ngan taqim, sheikh n ghobhi...
nak siapkan teks choral...

malam tuh ktorang kluar merayau carik ilham nak tulis teks...
dari aloha sampai la mbmb...
tapi tak datang2 gak ilham neyy...lembab tol palotak malam tuh...
last2 buat kat skolah gak sampai kol 2 pg...
esok tuh, nak balik...teks blom siap gak agi...
adoi, pg la umah cg ivy...

-da macam panton plak r atas neyy-("-_-)

pagi tu si kemal kate kat aku nak ikot g outing...
tp tyme tu br kol 9...mane ley aku bawak die kuar...kang aku ditud0h mengkidnap plak...
so, pg umah cg ivy, buat teks...
tetibe kol 11.30 lebey kurang ade call..
"unknown number"
aku tambah2...11...mesti si k emal ney...
aku jawab r...
die tanye aku kat ne...
aku kate kat umah mss ivy...
die tanye sampai bile...
aku kate aku tataw...
die kate tak pe r...
aku pon tak kate pape...
pastu aku dah serba salah dah...
suare die cam nak melalak je...ouh
tapi aku tataw camne nak gtau mss ivy...ad0yy

pastu dalam 12.15 baru la setel...
tu pon sebab die tengok aku cam dah telan kapur jek...
pastu kitorang pon balik r...
b4 that main kejar2 ngan ghobhi jap kat dalam taman tuh...
die nek moto, ktorang nek kete...
da macam vice city la plak...
pastu sheikh kate die nak balik....
malas nye aku nak antar...
tapi antar gak r...
aku maseh ade ati perut rupenye...

n then aku brenti jap kat bawah skolah tuh...
kat sini baru la citer mule...
time tu 12.30...
aku kluar dr kete, aku g kat pondok guard...
tetibe ade pak cik guard tu...semacam kuang asam je...
kuros keding cam cicak, muke cam tak makan setaon...
die pandang slack kat aku...
aku wat bodo je...
die tanye aku nak ape...
aku kate, nak check kawan dah kuar blom...
pastu die mengeluarkan ayat palat tuh dari mulot die...

"ehh...tak bleh2...pg carik sendiri kat atas"
"saye nak nengok buku tu je"
"tak bleh!!"

wah!! aku dah stat panas dah ngan pacik ney...
dalam ati aku, apehal lak org tua nih...aku nak tgk buku outing tu jek...bukan nak tengok kad outing...memang la die bodo nak marah2 aku plak...macam la private sgt buku tuh...rasional die pon aku tak tau...kuang asam...
mendidih je aku tengok die berdiri kat muke pintu guard post tuh...shmuck punye pakcik
pastu aku kate kat taqim, kite balik je r...kemal dah outing kot...
pastu, ktorang balik, singgah kat shell..nak setel bisnes...
pastu ade org call,
taqim jawab...
kemal...
die ade kat skolah lagik...
kitorang pon patah balik kat skolah...
naik atas...
pacik tuh pandang slack jek time ktorang lalu kat guard post tu...
aku pon pandang slack r balik kat die...
"bangsat nye pacik...wat palat ngan aku plak" dalam ati je..masih bersopan santun..

pastu sampai atas...
amek kemal,
apairana tibe2 nak ikot...
sbab aku ajak kot...
rupenye2 memang la guard tu tak puas ati ngan aku...
die bley ikot aku sampai atas...
aku reverse kete dengan sepenoh hati...sikit je lagik nak langgar moto die yang sparoh jahanam tuh...
pastu aku brake...konfem dah nak gugur da jantong die tuh...
-sedikit kuang ajar nampaknye-('',)
aku pon tergelak dengan kuatnye...
makin tak puas ati la die ngan aku...
pastu, aku tunggu apairana...guard tu pon bla turon bawah...surrender kot
apairana pon sampai...
aku ikot je blakang guard tu...
memule nak je aku langgar kan die time turun bukit tuh...
tapi orang sebelah aku kate tak baik...
aku pon pelik bile plak org sblah ni jadik baik...
ke memang aku je yang setan...
dan aku pon masih ade sedikit iman di dada...
kalau tak memang da mati katak da org tua tuh...
nasib baik la aku terpikir nasib anak bini die...
sampai kat bawah...
die wat palat lagik...
die tahan org depan kete aku...
saje je nak jam kan traffic...
nasib baik la aku bawak kete kecik...
kalau aku bawak Land Rover tyme tu memang la aku lanyak je die dengan guard post tu skalik...

aih...nasib2...
aku memule nak mencarut je kat die...
tak pon aku nak tunjokkan isyarat tangan hikmat aku...
aku ni pon memang feymes bab mencarot2 nih...
tapi memandangkan faktor usia, aku pendamkan aje...
nanti la die...
satu ari aku akan long jack muke die...

off topic:
-teks masey blom siap sepenoh nye...
-hanya jarak jauh akan digunakan...
-miss ieja sila email saye
-kemal, kalo nak g aloha 4 bunkface nanti call
-miss ivy, thanks for the tea
-ghobhi, next tyme race, aku akan menang ye...ill nail u forever
-eugene, kalo ade gig jangan lupe gtau
-kak sopen, thx for this idea

...Ouh...

2009-02-15T21:59:00.006+08:00

hari ni kau dtg bagi harapan...
esok kau tarik blk...
kemudian dtg lagi dan memberi...
dan pergi lagi...
dtg lagi...
terus x kembali...

aku x paham kau ni bangsat tahap brape...
gile kental kau...
heartless nak mati...
Lps ni kau jgn dtg tunjuk muka sepudal kau tersengih-sengih mcm kerang busuk...
Aku x kan pikir 8 kali nak long jack muka kau...
BANGSAT!

off-topic:
-real author kak sopen ye..

...Seventeen Signs You Love Someone...

2009-02-15T19:33:00.002+08:00

S e v e n t e e n :

You look at their profiles constantly.

S i x t e e n :

When you're on the phone/text with them late at night and they hang up/stop replying, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.

F i f t e e n :

You read their texts and IMs over and over again.

F o u r t e e n :

You walk really slow when you're with them.

T h i r t e e n :

You feel shy feel great whenever they're around.

E l e v e n :

When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time.

T e n :

You smile when you hear their voice.

N i n e :

When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you; you just see him/her.

E i g h t :

You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them.

S e v e n :

They're all you think about.

S i x :

You get high just from their scent.

F i v e :

You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.

F o u r :

You would do anything for them, just to see them.

T h r e e :

While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.

T w o :

You were so busy thinking about that person,you didn't notice number twelve was missing.

One :

You just scrolled up to check& are now silently laughing at yourself. :P

I know who am I thinking...Do u?

...Captivity...

2009-02-12T16:40:00.002+08:00

Well,
guess what...
the plan was a little bit....off...
we r (me n sheikh) in skul helpin out cg rosnah...
but turns out...
it is more than just dat...

Yesterday,
Ms. Rita was findin a gift for her 'valentine' where?? jj..
lol so we followed her n kinda help her with the gift...
Cg. Rita jangan marah yer i let your cats out of the bag...
well...
she couldnt figure out wat wud make a very lovely gift, so we came up with the idea of a sexy gift...
well i dun think it'd be appropriate fer me to let the whole world know what she bought for her valentine...
but trust me, we wud have made a great gift suggestor...
n this is the message to all female teacher in mozac...
juz don't assault her on this...
but trust me i bet she'd love to see her valentine IN her gift...hahaa...
on the way back we kinda scrutinize every bits of her life and I really, really think that she n her valentine made a really great couple....
I noe she told me not to post anything about her but please excuse me cuz Im runnin out of readers...
haha...
I oso noe dat I might be killed fer posting this but in life there are risks that we'd have to take n this is one of them...
so this is the story of Cg. Rita...lepas ni cg ape pulak yerp???....

...Bedtime Stories...

2009-02-04T18:30:00.004+08:00

Syies lawak gile hampeh...
tapi also not a total thumbs up...
sbab is not like wat i hope it would or should be...

Tapi rating lawak kire ok la an...
Kalo bawak budak2 besh r kot...

da la...
aku malas nak review....

...Kami The Movie...

2009-02-04T18:17:00.004+08:00

Well, I just watched it, downloaded via torrent but who gives a damn...

A 'rare'-should I say-movie in Malaysia,
revolving around Indie fanatics, lunatics, wannabes, hooligans and drug dealers...
I won't give a total thumbs up for the storyline coz it's a slow pacing kinda thing...
but quite interesting, a lil bit action, a lil bit of love, a lil emo, a lil fashion, a lil bit of music...

Tapi sad ending la wey!!!
koang tengok sendirik r malas aku nak citer...
tapi Juliana Evans tu lawa r...
aku download dalam tiga jam je...
so koang d0wnload r yep!!

wawawa....
Nak nangish lak tyme ending2 tue...

...Indie...

2009-02-03T17:50:00.008+08:00

Ni la die post bile aku da xde idea ape nak tulish...**blank**

Well, according to the dictionary, 'indie' is an informal version of the word independent...

Although this definition is accurate,
the word has come to mean more.
For many, it has come to symbolize originality and forward-thinking, especially in music and design...

By this definition,
indie is any business or designer that is not associated with a large company. Indie can also define the consumer who chooses to support small business, independent record labels and handmade items rather than shopping at big-box stores.(which sometimes cost more than big-box stores)

This term 'indie' thing usually refer to independent ROCK

can we say it's a slang...well, maybe...

History: Grew out from 60s garage, 70s punk, and 80s post punk it started in the mid 80s as alternative/college radio music.
Once nirvana hit big the alternative genre split: the popular side was just alternative (Smashing Pumpkins, Hole, No Doubt, etc.) and the other half that wasn't mainstream (by choice or not) became indie rock (Pavement, Sebadoh, Built To Spill, etc).

Sound: In the begining indie sounded like alternative(because it was) but it grew more experimental and weird. In Britain indie has more of a typical sound like Radiohead, Muse, etc. rather than a definition based on 'the scene.'

Here in Malaysia, well, the Indie band like I'd say Bunkface, MUH, Couple, etc...
are never left out of the mainstream, in fact, I hear them more on the radio than all the non-indie band...lol
The question is, why are they still called Indie when they're actually getting more popularity...
well,
like I said lot earlier,
'indie' has come to means more...

If you really think all indie kids do is try to be cooler than other people then... well..I got no comment for that....
The main point is, don't take the scene and the whole hipster attitude seriously. No one does.

And if you do, well, then I'm cooler than you.

...Real Or Simple...

2009-02-02T17:31:00.003+08:00

A simple friend has never seen you cry.
A real friend shoulder is soggy from your tears..

A simple friend doesn't know your parents' first names.
A real friend has their phone numbers in his address book.

A simple friend brings a bottle of wine to your party.
A real friend comes early to help you cook and stays late to help you clean.

A simple friend hates it when you call after they've gone to bed.
A real friend asks you why you took so long to call.

A simple friend seeks to talk with you about your problems.
A real friend seeks to help you with your problems.

A simple friend wonders about your romantic history.
A real friend could blackmail you with it!

A simple friend thinks the friendship is over when you have an argument.
A real friend calls you after you had a fight.

A simple friend expects you to always be there for them.
A real friend expects to always be there for you!

...Bibik Aku Dah Melampau...

2009-02-02T16:16:00.006+08:00

Nasib baik la aku bangun awal skit pagi tadi...
dalam kol 9...
kalau x...
dgn aku skali die sapu agak eh...

stakat ni die dah ade due dah enset,
satu maxis, satu celcom...
hampeh...
aku pon ade satu jek...
pastu,
tadi die bley mintak lak lagi satu kat mak aku...
pastu mak aku ley nak bli la plak...
ni semua la yang membangkitkan api neraka kemarahan aku ney!!!

menggedik tol die tuh...
memacam die nak...
kalo la mak aku x baik cam aku...
da lame da die jadik Nirmala Bonat...

ish..
nanti la aku kenekan die...
jage r...
syiot je...

pastu pagi tadi die tanye aku nak makan ape..
ni lagi la aku bengang ney...
tanye aku macam la ade bende lain die tau masak selain roti canai tuh..
da memang itu je die tau masak,
nak tanye ape lagik!!

pastu,
aku carik aku nye medication yang ak letak kat atas cupboard...
tetibe je dah xde dah...
pastu die kate mak aku yang simpan...
die kate die tak tau kat ane...
aku da nak tapak tapak je muke die tyme tuh...

hey..
cemane la aku nak wat nak wat ney...

TO BE CONTINUED...

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

this is a different time of day,

argh!!!
die dapat xpressmusic!!!!

...The Little Things...

2009-02-02T11:44:00.006+08:00

It's been a while since I set my feet off the school gate now,
And whenever I sat alone staring to the sky, watching as the clouds pass by,
I realize the little things that all these while I've been missing,
the little things I've been neglecting,
the little things that used to carve no meanings in my heart,
but all awhile were actually what makes up my life...

I know I will miss the way Cg. Azniza would round her eyes when I bring Cg. Johan into topics,
the way Ms. Amesah would talk in a very cold voice when I'm always late for her class,
the way Ms. Rita would grin when I told her the boys think her lips are sexy,
the way Ms. Haniza send shivers all over my body when she talks to me no matter what about,
I will forever be thinking about the way Ms. Ija would correct my pronunciation and her stories of escaping phonetics class for going to a matinee,
the way Ms. Ivy talked very, very descriptively,
the way Cg. Rokiah would talk very fast when she's excited like the electrons in a semiconductor,
the way Cg. Rachel would squint at me when I laugh out loud in her class and her, telling me how hyperactive I am,
the way Cg. Sazali would search every corner for who's been laughing n playing in his class while it's really me all along but he couldn't find me coz I'd hid under the table,
I will miss the way Cg. Saripah is annoyed having me, causing her to answer every add math question SHE gave,
the way Cg. Mazitah gets over the top when I keep on teasing her,
the way Cg. Midah would wonder when I'm always coming to her room every time I'm done with the bathroom to ask for tissue,
the way Cg. Rosnah would tease me....always,
the way Cg. Husaini and I fight about silly things,
the way Ustzh Norliyen jokes in our class,
the way the Principal asks about my music folio whether it's been done,
the way Cg. Kamar would teach me over n over again about cadents and chords things I forgot,
the way Cg. Shahril asks whether our tuning is ok and what not,
the way Ms. Sinasuria supports the debate team though it seems like we have no hope,
and the way I'm always nervous in front of Cg. Yati even if I did nothing wrong,

And I'll miss the way I always stay up late to spend some time singing with someone...

missing coz we spend so much time, and I know there's no more...
but missing something is what makes it so special...
though we no more breath the same air or step the same ground...
we'll always share the same memory....

life can only be understood backwards,
but it must be lived forwards,
so these are the little things,
I'd remember,
because as life paces,
something shouldn't be left behind....

...I Love You Not...

2009-02-01T18:13:00.004+08:00

Cinta itu menyakitkan tol x...huhu..
but dont ever say we don't need it...
dis is onli a fiction,
dah diubah dr perkare sebenar,
so fikirlah sendiri..

Boy: Sayang, we need to talk.
Girl: Dear, what do u mean?
Boy: Something has come up...
Girl: Kenape ni? What's wrong? Is it bad?
Boy: I don't want to hurt you, baby.
Girl: [Think] Oh my God, I hope he doesnt break up with me... I love him so much.
Boy: Baby, u dengar tak ni??
Girl: Ye, Im here. Ape yang important sangat ni??
Boy: I'm not sure if I shud say it..
Girl: Well, you already brought it up, so please just tell me.
Boy: I'm leaving...
Girl: Sayang, what are u talking about?? I don't want you to leave me, I love you.
Boy: Not like that, I mean I'm moving far away.
Girl: Why? All of your family lives over here.
Boy: No, we're moving away..
Girl: I can't believe this.

FATHER: (Picks up the other phone, interrupts & yells furiously)
What did I tell you about talking to boys?!!!... Get off the damn phone!!
(And hangs up)

Boy: Wow, your father sounds really mad.
Girl: You know how he gets, but anyways, I dont want you to go.
Boy: Would you run away with me?
Girl: Baby, I want to, I would do anything for you, but I can't... You don't know what would happen if I did. My dad would kill me!
Boy: *Sad* It's okay.. I understand, I guess..

Boy: I need to give you something tonite, because I am leaving on
flight 1-80 in the morning, so I need to see you now.
Girl: Okay, I will sneak out & meet you at the park.
Boy: Okay, I'll meet you there in 20 minutes.

[They meet at a nearby park, they both hug each other. And he gives her a note.]

Boy: Baby, u amek la ni, I really have to go...
Girl: *Tear* (Begins to cry.)
Boy: Baby, jangan la nangis, you know I love you... But I have to go.
Girl: Okay (Begins to walk away.)

[They both go back home.Diya begins to read the letter he gave her]

It says...
"Diya,
You probably already know that I'm leaving, I knew this would be better if I wrote a letter explaining the truth about how much I care about you. The truth is, is that I never loved you, I hated you so much, you are my bitch and dont you ever forget that. I never cared about you, and never wanted to talk to you, and be around you. You really have no clue how much I hate you. Now that I'm leaving I thought you should know that I hate you, bitch. You never did the
right thing, and you were never there. you don't need me and I don't need you even more. I didnt think I could hate someone as much as I hate you. And I never want to see you, for the rest of my life, I will never miss kissing you like before, I never want to cuddle up, how we used to. I will not miss you and that's a promise. You never had my love, and I want you to remember that. Bitch, you keep this letter because this may be the last thing you have from me. Fuck, I hate you so much and so I'm telling you to fuck off. I will not talk to you soon bitch... Goodbye.
-aku-"

[ Diya begins to cry, she throws the paper in tha garbage & crys for hours ]

A day passed, she is sad, depressed and she feels so lonely...
Then she gets a phone call....

Friend: Ko camne?
Girl: I just cant believe this happened.. I thought he loved me.
Friend: Oh, about that. He left me a message. A few days ago. He told me to tell you to look in your jacket pocket or something...
Girl: Umm.. okay.

[She finds a piece of paper in the jacket,
It says:

"Baby I hope you find this before you read my letter. I knew your dad might read it, so I switched a few words...
Hate = Love
Never = Always
Bitch = Baby
Will not= will
I hope you didn't take that seriously because I love you with all my heart, and it was so hard to let you go thats why I wanted you to run away with me...-me-"

Girl: Oh my God! It's a letter.. He does love me!!, he must of slipped it into my pocket when he hugged me. I can't believe how stupid I am!!

Friend: lol Okay but I g2g... Call me later.
Girl: *happy*okay, bye, I'll be at home waiting for my baby to call me!

... Erica turns the T.V. on......

[Breaking news]

"An airplane has crashed. Over 47 young boys died, we are still searching for survivors... This is a tragedy we will never forget, this plane was flight 1-80..." the Reporter says.

[ She turns off the t.v. ... 3 days later, she kills herself, because of the fact that he was dead & she had nothing to live for... ]

A day after that the phone rings. Nobody answers. It was him...he called to leave a message. "Its me, I guess you're not home so, I called to let you know that I'm alive, I missed my flight because I had to see you one last time. So, I hope your not worried sayang. I am staying for good...I'll see you soon...

...Treasure What You Have...

2009-02-01T16:33:00.002+08:00

Time is:
too slow for those who wait,
too swift for those who fear,
Too long for those who grief,
Too short for those who rejoice,
But for those who love...
Time is Eternity...

For all you out there with someone special in your heart,
cherish that person,
cherish every moment that you spend together that special someone,
for in life,
anything can happen anytime.
You may painfully regret,
only to realise that it is too late...

...Pendek je...

2009-02-01T13:43:00.003+08:00

OH

MY

GOD!!

warghh!!
tensyennye aku...
cemane plak submission entry ley tutop plak ney!!!
warghh!!

arini ni aku bukak offic website utk audition yang aku nak try...
sekali dah tarikh tutop la plak...
schmuck!!

aritu die mintak hantar second video,
utk finalizing..
suoh men lagu rimsky-karsakov, mozart dgn haydn...
die ingat senang gak eh nak carik piece lagu tuh...
aku order la all the way fromm Long Island...

pastu, aku agak lame la lagi date submission entry...
skali da tutop plak...

penat je aku practice utk video 1...
da la lagu diye susah...
kat bawah ni aku letak skor die ek..
tengok la...
ni vid 1 nye piece...
bkn yang 2...

so...
melepas la aku nak g Carnagie Hall, New York...
sebab asik sangat bejalan sampai lupe tarikh tutop...
huuu~

...First post~...

2009-02-01T11:38:00.002+08:00

rite...
not really my first blog...
startin a new one to kill the time...
cuti lelame ni sumpah boring...

aku taw korang mesti tak paham asal name blog ney camtuh...
itu la yang owg panggil yiddish kalo korg nak tau...
bahasa yang x diiktiraf dunie...
maksud die x yah la ak gtau...
tersangat lucah...

time kat skolah dlu aku ingat mase lps abis spm la yang paling best...
asal kat ym je tulis skool sucks, skool sucks...
skang padan la muke aku...
dok kat umah lagi la bosan rupenye...

so budak yang tengah still skolah tu...
tk yah la nak kate skool suck...
abes skolah lg bosan tahap cipan...
rase nak angkat je buku bio n add tuh..
yang slame ni aku rase nak bakar bakar...

adeyh..
skang aku dah terperangkap gak ngan keje2 membuat blog nih...
cam org yang xde kehidupan...
slalunye org yang bosan je wat blog ney...

cemane aku membunoh mase:
1. g shopping
2. jenjalan
3. tido la ape lg
4. layan sheikh kat ym (same je bosan ngan xde pe nak wat)

tapi skang ni ok la skit...
sbab da ade lesen...
so...
merayau2 la aku sensorang...
sbab org lain sume nak dok umah je membesarkan bontot...
yang nak teman aku pon anas je ngan dolah...
sebaik la diorang ade...

pastu...
bosan gak lg...
pg la KL...
2 minggu ni da 2 kali da ak ulang alik g KL...
adey...
cenggitu la tahap kbosanan aku kat umah...